my something personal

hi all!

it's hard to believe that another year has come and gone but it's so exciting for the holmes house as we step into the new year! there are many ah-mazing things brewing here in the house but we are still working some things out so ill keep quiet on those for now.

i recently read a post over at my so-called handmade life , a blog that's on my blog feed and one that i enjoy! michelle recently made a post about something that she has been dealing with in her personal life and i was so moved by it, i thought i would point you to it. please, stop reading here, click over there and come right back...you have to read it before reading my response...it's ok...i'll wait.

you back?

what a moving post, don't you think? after i read her post, i started thinking about all of us who really do have something that we are struggling with, but wonder if it's too much to open up about. for me, there are always things rolling through my head that i want to get out but just don't know if i could ever shut up once it starts flowing. in my own distrust, it stays bottled up and when something triggers it, everything comes pouring out. maybe not the best way to deal with something, huh?

i started this blog as a way for me to basically connect with others. people that knit or spin, mamas who are home all day with their children, or really anyone that might care what i have to say. i always struggle with what i can say in this space. are there people who won't read because they don't share similar views on parenting or religion? at the end of the day, i find myself more shut up here then i do in real life. that is not right. this blog or any blog should be free of those feelings. it's important that we find our own way of expression, and this blog is that for me.

my husband is now without a job. we made the decision that our time in church ministry was over for now so last sunday was sam's last sunday. we have no idea what's next. such a scary place to be, relying on what we think we know in moving forward. this month is going to be tight for us. it will stretch us not only financially but spiritually as well. and the catch is that we have no idea how long that will last. i have started looking for a part-time job, just to pick up some extra money here and there. i also have some people who have ordered some knit items from me so there may be a little extra money there as well but that only goes so far. but- we know that this is where we are supposed to be, completely relying on faith, knowing that this was the right decision.

so while, i'm not dealing with aging grandparents or illness, this is my struggle right now. the unknown. i don't know where the next few weeks or months will take us but i find peace knowing that our family is not alone, we believe in something greater than ourselves....God. and we know that He gives us peace that passes all understanding. we know that He will never leave us. that He has a plan that  is greater than anything we can imagine. so, in this new year, the holmes family is leaning on that.

i know that there are others out there who are struggling as well. that need encouragement. if that's you, i pray peace over you as you read this. i pray that you will have clarity as you move through your struggle.

and thanks to michelle, for opening up and sharing just so that she could work through it.